Monthly Archives: January 2005

In all honesty, nothing makes me happier than getting a chance to be a
nice guy and help somebody out when they have a problem…it really
makes me feel like I have a purpose here and like I am capable of doing
something good…it really makes me feel good to think of others.

Well I am up late because I had math homework that I put off until now.
And Anne needed help with a problem so I helped her out, and I’m
surprised and pleased that I was successfully able to bring her up when
she was down. We’re going to the BSU game tonight so that should be fun.

I literally just sat here in front of the computer for like 12 straight
hours…not always actually at the computer but I was here. You’d think
it would be a wasted day, but not when I talked to so many great

ND beat UConn!!!!!!!

A. Bob


My roomie has a girlfriend and still gets more girls than I do…

If someone could tell me how this is fair, that would be fantastic…

I hate weekends….I hate alcohol…I hate people that ignore me just because I don’t drink…

A. Bob

Here’s something fun to do…if you like insulting me, this is your chance!!!

I ____ Andy.
Andy is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Andy, I would _______.
I think Andy should _____.
Andy needs ______.
I want to ____________ Andy.
Someday Andy will ________.

Andy reminds me of _______.
Without Andy _______.
Memories of Andy are ________.
Andy can be __________.
The worst thing about Andy is _________.
The best thing about Andy is _________.
I am ________ with Andy.

I’m gonna edit…but keep those surveys rolling in…if I don’t get any more responses by tomorrow I’ll start editing over it.

Cool girls I’ve met in the last couple days: Joan and Alli…both
really cool, pretty, Christian girls who I like talking to. Joan lives
in Illinois but at least Alli goes here. Cool stuff. Life is treating
me in a positive manner.

Honorable mention also to Audrey and Meredith who are also cool and nice to talk to.

Ball State won again today 67-59 over NIU. Since the student section
was named The Nest at the beginning of this season, they haven’t lost
at home. ND plays UConn tomorrow…hate to call it a must-win, but it
would REALLY help us out. Bulls-Celts tonight on national WGN, so I’ll
be watching.

I hope I can find something to do. I might — might — actually see
Incredibles tonight. I lied last night because I didn’t see it.

A. Bob

Wow it’s 10:00 on Friday night and already Pancho and Eric already have
given up on finding anything fun to do. Bobby disappeared to Purdue
about 15 minutes after telling us that he was leaving. And I’m not sure
he would’ve told me if I hadn’t found out from Liz that he was coming.
He’s going with Kelley…who may be his girlfriend…I don’t know.
Bobby doesn’t tell us anything anymore. LOL, he’s probably not dating
her, but it sure seems like for someone that he has called annoying on
numerous occasions, that he wouldn’t go for a weekend to Purdue with
that person.

I dunno what else is going on. I hope everyone else is having more fun
than I am. I guess later I might catch the 11:45 Incredibles at Pruis
since I haven’t seen it yet and it doesn’t look like anything is going
to happen. Hope all have a good night.

A. Bob


I woke up it was seven
I waited til eleven
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I’ve got alot of friends
But I don’t hear from them
What’s another night all alone
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare
I’m just a kid I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cuz I’m alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

And maybe when the night is dead
I’ll crawl into my bed
I’m staring at these four walls again
I’ll try to think about the last time
I had a good time
Everyone’s got somewhere to go
And there gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare
I’m just a kid I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cuz I’m alone and the world is
Having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me
Don’t fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me
Wide awake I’m bored and I can’t fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I’m just a kid(repeat)

I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare
I’m just a kid I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cuz I’m alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare
I’m just a kid I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cuz I’m alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares cuz I’m alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
I’m all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cuz I’m just a kid tonight

Ya know, it’s really hard to accuse girls of not liking nice moral guys
when you know a lot of them who do. Ah well, what are ya gonna do?

Today, I’m grabbing lunch with a friend, finishing up my easy speech,
doing Cardinal Sportslive, and other than that just hanging out and
IMing with people.

ND lost again last night, because 3-point marksman Colin Falls only had
one of them. He’s probably the MVP of the team, besides Thomas. The
Bulls play their first ever game against the expansion Bobcats tonight.
Should be easy. Ben Gordon vs Emeka Okafor will be fun, though.

Hope all have a good day, particularly new friends.

In the spirit of Nate Dawg’s Xanga, I’ll be posting song lyrics from
time to time. It’s not a total copy off him, though, I did this before
I subscribed to his Xanga, I just haven’t done it in a while.


She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don’t know why
But she’s changed my mind

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She’s got me thinking about her constantly
But she don’t know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she’s figured out
I’m crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn’t end
Why didn’t I know what I know now

(repeat chorus)

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I’m ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

(repeat chorus 2x)

A. Bob

Alright, so it’s been a while since I actually journaled in this. So here’s my last couple days:

Well, the sole fell off my right shoe playing basketball with the guys
on Monday night, so I bought a new pair with some of the leftover money
from book buying. They’re a really nice pair and I hope they last
longer than the 5 months or so that this pair did.

Tuesday, I did a lot of sitting around, being as I only have the one
English class in the morning. I do have this project due in about a
week that I should get going on…I’m not even sure I have a topic. I
also have a speech on Friday…a small 2 minute one that I’m about
halfway done planning. Played some Catchphrases in Lutes’s room. He’s
cool. That game can get crazy. Just in the last few days, we’ve figured
out that Pancho thinks the Niagara Falls are in Wyoming, that beavers
are insects, and that he doesn’t know the name of the Statue of
Liberty, among other stupidities.

Today is my five-class-in-a-row day. And it leads off with a mile and a
half run in P.E. That’ll be fun, considering I haven’t been in shape in
four years.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my little brother, Cameron, the nicest kid I know.

[20:16] ABob1086: if valentines day was a weekend i would def go home for that 😛
[20:17] Michelle: eh V-day is a hallmark holiday- fun but not that big of deal to me
[20:18] ABob1086: lol
[20:18] ABob1086: i want to write about it for my column that runs that
day but i dunno if i can ramble for 500 words on the evils of v-day
[20:18] ABob1086: and really ppl would just shrug it off as a single guy’s whining anyway, hehe
[20:20] Michelle: lol
[20:20] Michelle: not if you found an interesting way to do it
[20:20] Michelle: come up with something COMPLETELY original
[20:20] Michelle: dont knock it dont condone it
[20:20] Michelle: do something people won’t expect
[20:21] ABob1086: i could use the f word in the column, that would be unexpected! lol jk
[20:21] ABob1086: dunno…i got a couple weeks to think about it tho
[20:22] Michelle: yeah
[20:23] Michelle: from friend to friend, i think you should try to
dwell less on not having someone and think more about when it does
happen, it will be special
[20:23] Michelle: and V-day will be easier for you
[20:23] Michelle: I dont like it when I know you’re down about it
[20:24] ABob1086: lol. i’m not down about it, its just an annoyance.
I’m not looking for anyone right now anyway bc i am sick of chasing
girls who dont like me so 😛 to them. lol
[20:25] ABob1086: and the funny thing is, i am not just saying that like i usually am
[20:26] Michelle: i dont know what to say

What the heck does she mean, she doesn’t know what to say? I didn’t
pursue the subject but I have no clue what she meant by that. I really
hate when girls are vague about things. Since she’s perfect and all, though, I’m willing to give her the benefit of the doubt.

A. Bob

1. what is the geekiest part of your music collection? All my music is
fairly normal. I guess since a lot of girls like Simple Plan, that
would make it a little “geeky” though.
2. what do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? I don’t raid the fridge late at night
3. what is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? Movies usually don’t make me cry, but Rudy is a good one.
4. if you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? Fix the small gap in my front teeth
5. do you have a completely irrational fear? not really
6. what is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments? I look around a lot
7. are you a pyromaniac? I’d say…no.
8. so you have too many love interests? Probably
9. do you know anyone famous? Not really. In fact I’d say with my
newspaper column, I’m the most famous person I know. Kinda sad, huh?
10. describe your bed: It’s on a loft. Pretty plain. It’s big enough for me, that’s what matters.
11. are you spontaneous or planned? I tend to be planned but I have been spontaneous before and can be again
12. who would play you in a movie? If I were a little more physically
imposing, I would say Benjamin McKenzie from The O.C. If I was funnier,
I’d say Adam Brody from The O.C. Sadly enough, Macaulay Culkin would
probably be the most convincing.
13. do you know how to play poker? Yeah. I play the free online kind a lot.
14. what do you carry with you at all times? My BSU ID card and my keys.
15. what do you miss most about being a kid? I miss never having homework.
16. are you happy with your given name? My first name is
horrible…Andrian. Everyone calls me Andy and I like that name.
Matthew is my middle name and I like that too.
17. how much money would it take to get you to give up the internet for
one year? How much money can you take out of Bill Gates’s ATM?
18. what color is your bedroom? It’s pretty much white.
19. what was the last song you were listening to? I’m listening to music now. Last Call by Outkast and Lil Jon.
20. have you ever been in a play? In the 5th grade I was in Babes in Toyland but I was just a singer in the “choir”.
21. have you ever been in love? Even though we don’t date and almost
certainly never will, Michelle has my heart till she breaks it or I get
over her (not likely).
22. do you talk a lot? I’ve gotte na lot less shy in the last year and a half and it’s helped me A LOT.
23. do you like yourself and believe in yourself? For the most part
24. do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? Can’t say I know
25. do you consider yourself to be a nice person? Every girl thinks I’m
sweet. I guess that happened around the time all the other guys became
26. do you spend more time with your bf/gf or your friends? I don’t
have a gf, but if I did she would come first most of the time
27. what is your ideal marriage location? In St. Pius X Church.
28. which musical instrument do you wish you could play? I couldn’t care less
29. favorite fabric? anything comfortable
30. something you love and hate? I love sports. I hate Michael Moore.
31. what kind of bedding do you use? Blankets. You think I care? I’m a guy.
32. what’s the one language you want to learn? I know English and German, that’s enough.
33. how do you eat an apple? whole, or with caramel
34. what do you order at a bar? havent been to one
35. have you ever pierced your body parts? nope
36. do you have tattoos? nope
37. do you drive a stick? nope
38. favorite trait of the opposite sex? Affectionate. If a girl doesn’t
like me enough to say it to me or give me hugs from time to time, she’s
probably not worth my time.
39. what’s one trait you hate in a person? No really weird piercings or tattoos, please.
40. what kind of watch do you wear? none
41. most frivolous purchase? DVDs
42. do you consider yourself materialistic? not really
43. what are you best at cooking? anything that the instructions are written for me already
44. favorite writing instrument? black pens.
45. do you prefer to stand out or blend in? Blend in.
46. would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? ummm…NO!
47. what’s one car you will never buy? SUV or pickup.
48. what kind of books do you like to read? Sports books.
49. if you won the lottery, what would you do? Ask me when I win it.
50. burial or cremation? Burial, I suppose. I want people to visit my gravesite.
51. how many online journals do you read regularly? I’m subscribed to A
LOT of people’s Xangas. Some I am actually interested in, others, I
just want some reading material.
52. what’s one thing you’re a loser at? Most things.
53. if you don’t like a person, how do you show it? By being boring on purpose around them.
54. do you cry in front of your friends? no.
55. what kind of first impression do you think you give to people? Quiet, shy, but nice.
56. what’s one thing you like to do alone? IM, watch movies sometimes, read
57. are you a giver or a taker? I would probably be a giver in a relationship if that’s what you mean.
58. when’s the last time you cried? It’s been a month or so, I can’t remember.
59. favorite communication method? IMing. It’s easier to talk about personal stuff that way.
60. how many drinks before you’re tipsy? Never tried
61. do you think you’re cute? I don’t think I am ugly. But I in no way
think I’m any more than average-looking, some people I know’s opinions
62. do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends? Not IN
FRONT of them, but as long as I am in a corner or something where they
can’t see me, it’s alright.