I really have to get out of this house. My work schedule basically requires I stay up til 6 am or thereabouts every day…which wouldn’t matter except that EVERYONE ELSE DOES SO TOO. Megan got up just a little bit ago to go to Cedar Point. I’m sick of being at the mercy of what everyone else is doing. I have to take Connor AND Cameron places tomorrow, which costs me gas money, and I just lent my mom 300 dollars because apparently I’m the only one who remotely takes care of my income even though I make less than anybody else in the house. Why can’t I just get the hell out of here???
It’s amazing how quickly Xanga went from something everybody had to a tiny footnote in social-networking history. Facebook and MySpace exploded in the 2006-08 area and every Xanga it seemed was neglected or deleted into permanent nothingness. Even mine for a while. But now that no one reads these except for Amy (and maybe Brianna?), one can say almost anything on here.
I’m thinking about getting an apartment soon, but my #1 option for a roommate – Jake – is making me feel weird about it by his extreme emotional state after Amanda dumped him last month. This is at least the 3rd time the two have broken up or gone on a break or whatever in the 2+ years since this started, so I don’t know what to think. I don’t blame Amanda for leaving as I’m sure dating Jake was and is an incredible chore, but I don’t know why Jake still wants her. The dude may have cost himself a job by staying in this area after graduation for her, for two years, and she leaves after apparently wanting to for a while. Again, not that I blame Amanda, but from Jake’s point of view it would seem like all this is reason enough to not still be after her, and yet he is. His Facebook picture is a black box and he asked me last week if Amanda had asked about him. All this drama is making me want a different roommate. The issue is that there aren’t any other people around here I could really see myself living with. There are a couple of people at IHOP I suppose would be okay – Mike and Doug come to mind – but both smoke, neither make any more money than I do, and I’m just not sure our personalities would mesh. There’s always the option to live with John, which would be cheaper bill-wise but I don’t want to insert myself into that situation either if I can avoid it. It will be another month or two before I have to make this decision, but I would like to have it squared away relatively soon.
Life is complicated…thank God I have Amy, the only thing that makes sense in my life. Love you babe.
There was a time when my life revolved around Michelle Anthony (nee Long). It was a profoundly sad time in my life, but out of it grew one of my better friendships, with her. It’s a really nice, wonderful thing to be friends with someone who you can be completely honest with about stuff.
And to hear her refer to my incredible happiness with Amy – specifically my comment about it taking 22 years to find someone who would give me a 4th date (intended to give her hope) – by saying “that’s because no one knew you like I do”…well, that’s pretty wonderful. Nicest thing I’ve heard in a long time out of someone besides my lovely girlfriend.
Sometimes it’s the unhappiest time in your life that brings about the happiest one.